Words and Thoughts
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I felt helpless perched beside
You on the couch
Knees tucked to chin
As we both stared ahead
To flickering screen
Though there were only inches
Between I knew we could
Never occupy one space truly
That your family and my friends
Would demand attention
But I leaned into your warmth
Pressing my right side to your left
Pretending we could defy both
Physics and life.
Mad Girls Love Song
“I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
God topples from the sky, hell’s fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan’s men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
I fancied you’d return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)”
-Sylvia Plath
cause it’s my favorite jane austen quote.
and i’m feeling a little feisty today.
#jane austen was so punk rock
Just because we’re servants,
Does not mean we cannot feel,
Every kind of love that exists,
Whether it’s “right” or not.
(Source: crazyhedgehog)
The Downton Fandom
You are obliged to listen to this.
Downton Abbey
Matthew Crawley (Dan Stevens)
I will now dedicate this night to shamelessly blogging everything Downton Abbey
Because I have jsut been made privy to the horrifying news that because I am an american citizen, I must now wait UNTIL JANUARY to see season three.
No, this is not okay
NOT OKAY I AM SO MAD ITS NOT EVEN OKAY EVER IN A MILLION YEARS
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here is my cover letter, as it currently stands.
i’m not sure why i’m not getting any responses
Currently 2:30 am
I just feel like im stuck here. Falling back into old habits. Habits that are not good for me. In so many ways this summer is different from last. But as always, I have a tenancy to think a little too fondly of the past. I guess the challenge is to create more moments that feel like this. But I keep on going back.
Back to conversations, back looks, back to feelings. Back to Paris, my little front porch. Back to the streetlights and cozy coffee shops. Back to the four of us, Back to the six of us, back to that night. Back to the road trips, back to raw fear. Back to all the times I have felt so alive, so connected, so loved.
I think, when you have moments like these, you try to live your life searching for something like it. But its when we dont try, these moments happen, they cant be forced. Just why do I feel so alone right now? Why do I want to force them?
